(W)Eight

I’m still maintaining 172 pounds, size 14. I’m not really thinking about it too much, or worrying about my weight. I’m still thrilled not to still be 200 pounds. I was reading Self(ish) yesterday when I got to an article about a woman who went from 300 pounds to 170. The [...]

Actually, it was the other night, but I dreamed of myself at my dream weight. It was very convincing. Some of the pictures were nice, artistic black and whites. I’m wearing an adorable chiffon top and cool jeans. It felt REAL. I think when I get close to my dream [...]

Downward progress!  Go body! It doesn’t want that extra weight any more than I do!
My official weight for the week is 82.8. My body is doing what it wants, and I’m okay with that. My goal is living a healthy life and letting my body get to its natural healthy weight.
At the Y tonight, I [...]

I hate to see pictures of me.  Recently, I’ve seen at least two different pictures taken of me in the spring.  In one, I was definitely at my peak weight.  My face looked so swollen.  And I was huge.  It was embarrassing.  Another picture was taken a few weeks later and I didn’t look quite [...]

I’m so frustrated.
Last week, I had two good runs.  One was a hilly run of about half an hour.  The other was on a track– I wanted to see whether I could run a mile without stopping and how long it would take me.  (Yes, 11 minutes.)  Then, my hip started to hurt.  My good [...]

I know I said I was tired of talking about weight, but I think I still need to focus on it deliberately for a little while longer.  This year has been a great year for rethinking my relationship with food and my relationship with my own body.  A question I have been working on this [...]

More Americans Too Fat for X-Rays.
Stories like this make me feel deeply ashamed.  I’m not yet too fat for X-rays, but I am right up there in the obesity statistics.  I am obese.  I have been fighting obesity for six years now, and I have been losing.  Six years.  I can get all this other [...]

Today at the pool, I realized I feel exactly the same way about my body in a bathing suit that I did when I was a healthy weight.  I felt fat then.  I feel no fatter now.  Basically, at 140 pounds, I felt the same as I feel at 190 pounds.  That is so wrong.  [...]